Of never-ending. My mom’s disappointment still haunts me

Of all the gifts that life has to offer, a loving mother is
the greatest of them all (Unknown, 2018). My mother is perhaps my favorite
person in the whole world. Her unconditional love, her constant sacrifices, and
her inner strength constantly remind me how blessed I am to call her my mom. She
is the greatest influence in my life. Not only is she my mom, but the best
friend I could ask for. She is the reason why I am who I am today. My mother is
more than a mom. She is simply a beautiful individual, inside and out.

            When I
think about what it is to be a mom, I think of someone who makes a choice every
day to put someone else’s happiness and well-being ahead of their own. Someone
who has to keep going even when they’re at a breaking point. I think of someone
who has to teach hard lessons and give discipline even when it breaks their
heart. Most importantly, I think of someone who shows continuous support, hope,
and love. My mother exceeds my expectations. To this day, she is still my
Wonder Woman.

            Looking
back through the years, never once did my mother give up on me. She taught me
the importance of pushing through difficult times and to keep trying harder.
She doesn’t always agree with the decisions I make. However, she makes sure
that I know that she will support me no matter what. My brother and I’s
happiness is so important to her. My mom loved me even when I felt like I
didn’t deserve it. My junior year in high school I fell in love. I focused more
on my relationship with my boyfriend than I did my mom and I’s. I began
disrespecting my mom and her rules. I remember a time when I snuck out of the
house and went to my boyfriends. I will never forget the rush of fear that
flowed through my body when my phone began to ring at three o’ clock in the
morning. My heart fluttered like the wings of a hummingbird. The drive home was
never-ending. My mom’s disappointment still haunts me to this day. Letting her
down is one of the biggest regrets in my life. Although I wasn’t able to go
hunting the next morning, she didn’t stay angry with me. Instead, she talked
with me and taught me a lesson of having respect and good morals. These traits
have stuck with me ever since.

            My mom was
a single mother who raised my brother and I with little help. She never showed
signs of weakness or let us know she was struggling. She got out of bed early
every morning even when she had no desire. She managed to get us, and herself,
ready without ever being late to work. She used makeup to cover the dark
circles under her eyes caused by stress and lack of sleep. My mom did whatever
it took to make sure my brother and I didn’t go without. She never hesitated to
drop what she was doing to rush us to baseball or softball practice, or simply
just to our friend’s house. She would sacrifice her needs and wants to put ours
first. Instead of buying herself a new purse, she would buy us a new pair of shoes.
Often times, my mom mentions the guilt she feels for not being able to take my
brother and I to Disneyland or to different fun places. Having new school
clothes and supplies every year, getting to play sports, and always giving us
the best Christmas never went unnoticed. Her love is what brought us happiness.
She taught me the value of family and how important it is to love and support
the ones closest to you. The bond she created in our little family is
unmeasurable.

            My mom lost
her father and two brothers before the age of twenty-one. Heartbroken and lost,
she never lost faith in God. I’m sure there has been plenty of times she
wondered what His plan was and questioned why he took three incredible,
innocent, and important individuals from her life. The strongest people are not
those who show strength in front of the world but those who fight and win battles
that others do not know anything about (Harnisch, 2018). Never once did these tragedies stop my
mom from being the best mother she could. The strength my mom carries within is
astounding. She puts all questions aside and continues to believe and have
faith. My mom has taught me to put my worries and concerns in God’s hands, to
pray, and to trust that He will guide me through life and always be there for
me. My mother is my strength. She is my safe place.

            Recently my
mom made a huge change in her life. She decided she wanted to do something she
has always wanted to do but couldn’t because she was focusing on raising her
kids. My mom decided to go to college to pursue a nursing career. Words cannot
begin to describe how proud I am of her. She studies hard and does homework for
many hours each day. She has continued to push herself to work hard even when
she has felt like giving up. Her 4.0 GPA shows that hard work pays off. Watching
her succeed brings me so much joy. Her strong work ethics, kind heart, and
drive to help others will allow her to become a wonderful nurse. My mother has
shown me that with determination one can accomplish anything.

            The impact
my mom has made in my life is endless. There are not enough words to explain
how important she is to me, and what a powerful influence she continues to be.
My mom is an inspiration in everything I do. I would not be half the woman I am
today if it wasn’t for her. She has taught me to be happy and true to myself.
My mom has encouraged me to always try my best and never give up. She has shown
me how to be a loving, caring and strong mother to my own daughter.  Her heart is filled with compassion. I will
strive to forever carry her heart in mine.

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